what if you realize that you still love him... that you really love him? would you tell him or would you rather suppress the feeling after all those years of unsuccessful suppression?

wouldn't it be right to fall for a friend? i know it's not. but isn't it just logical to fall for someone you already know? someone you've been with for quite sometime?

would you rather risk all those years of friendship to exercise your freedom of expression... like telling him how much he means to you just in case he doesn't know... but what if the feeling isn't mutual?

what if he really knows... and he just doesn't feel the same way... so his being passive about the issue is basically just his way of not offending you.

would you rather have him confront you about it and tell you exactly what he really feels knowing that his honesty may bring you tears?

reality bites. it hurts. but it is that bite you need that will take you from fantasy land to reality.

2nd day ko sa work. dami kong gustong sabihin. i just cant put my thoughts into words.

an advice from ate joan, say yes so you don't have to scold yourself when something unwanted happens. 

it happened unexpectedly. he is a friend and i don't have any feelings for him. my heart is set only for one person and no one else. i objected when he asked to kiss me. but he kissed me still. i only partly objected and i was surprised when i responded to his kiss. when i realized what was happening, i stopped and turn rigid. i didn't want to continue for the fear of what might happen next.