There aren't so many interesting things in my life these past few days. I'm doing my everyday routine- wake up, get ready for school, teach for six hours, and go home to sleep, eat, read books or watch TV (Hello my lady, witch yoo hee, kim sam soon, and dalja's spring), prepare for the next day and listen to the radio and sleep.

I've been wanting to add something that would make this sojourn a bit more exciting but I'm just too tired to think of an activity and execute it.

It's good that I somehow have some people who never get tired of inviting me to dinner, movies, ktvs, sleepovers or for just a night of chitchats though I seldom heed their invitations and often give them excuses like i'm sick, i'm too tired to travel, that place is very far!, and many others I can think of.

I never believed in love
I was deceived by love
I never had much luck with lovers before
And I couldn't compete
I seemed just part of the street
To be walked on by everyone but then

Then I found a very special love in you
It's a feeling that's so totally new
Over and over, it's burning inside
I found a very special love in you
And it almost breaks me in two
Squeezing me tighter
But I'm never gonna let go

You're not like the rest
I know you're one of the best
You give more than you should and take nothing in return (in return)
Stay always with me
And I always will be
The one person that you can count on always to love you

And I found a very special love in you
It's a feeling that's so totally new
Over and over, it's burning inside
I found a very special love in you
And it almost breaks me in two
Squeezing me tighter
But I'm never gonna let go
But I...

Found a very special love in you
It's a feeling that's so totally new
Over and over, it's burning inside
I found a very special love in you
And it almost breaks me in two
Squeezing me tighter
But I'm never gonna let go

I agree to this forwarded message so I posted it here in my blog to remind me that love is a daily choice we make. It's a decision. 

Falling in love is easy. You don't have to exert effort for you to fall. It just happens. But keeping that love depends on you.  

It is not "Destiny" that determines "Love"

It is "Choice". Our so-called "Destiny" is a lie...

Relationships last long not because they're destined to last long.

Relationships last long because two brave people made a choice -to keep it, & to work for it.

Meanwhile, other relationships fail not because they're destined to fail. They failed because one of the two, or both, made the choice -to set the other one free.  (Thanks for holdin' me.)

-from pangga

At dahil di ako nakasama sa mga blockmates ko last Saturday to watch The Dark Knight because of someone I waited which turned out to be somekinda waiting in vain drama dahil no show ang lola, today I decided to watch the movie alone. Watching a movie alone might sound a little pathetic.. and yeah, in a way, it is. But it has been a long time ago since I thought of watching a movie by myself so there just this afternoon, I had accomplished my plan.

To tell you the truth, it was my first time to watch Batman on the big screen. haha. and I watched it alone. The movie was great. It was worth the money I paid. Though I think it would have been a lot better if I watched it with my friends para naman may nakakausap ako while watching. kasi naman nakakalungkot, i can't laugh loud at wala akong pwedeng tanungin kung may namiss akong conversation or kung may di lang talaga ako naintindihan dahil wala kasing subtitles e but if i had my friends with me, i can ask from them. haha.

To my very special love: (i wrote it here kasi i can't tell him this in person. im just too shy.)

"I love you so much and I mean every word. Swear. You will always be in my heart. We will never be apart... well, maybe in distance but never in heart. Hope to be with you forever."

Just a day after I watched The Dark Night alone, I watched it for the second time but now, I'm with friends in Greenbelt. Though gone are the thrills and suspense of the story but still I enjoyed the movie. 

The market today is so full of products that promise you to lose weight in a matter of weeks. Almost all the products you see in the groceries and supermarkets and on advertisements have "zero calories" or "no calories" or something that suggests minimal calories on their labels. There are also a lot of equipment you can use to aid your weight-loss regimen.

People are so conscious of their calorie intake and so they are also conscious of the food they eat. They have to lessen sweet and oily foods, fatty foods and the like to maintain their figure.

But how about people like me whose major problem is being thin? I am not really so thin like a stick but relative to most people, I am really thin. Below average. There was never a point in time since my childhood years that I can say I am fat, 'coz really I wasn't. My parents have bought me supplements to help increase my appetite but still I am like this. Which makes me wonder where have all those vitamins, supplements and food gone? And you know what, I still weigh the same as when I was in high school. For many years now, I secretly wish to gain at least five kilograms more than my weight.

So i searched for some articles and tips on the web on how to actually achieve my target. 

I found one article that tackles about taking up a certain level of calorie per day to maintain or increase weight.. and how much calories you have to add in your diet to increase your weight while doing excercise. And I have started on doing this.. like when I go to groceries or supermarkets, I would actually look at the nutrition facts of a certain product and compare it with other products and buy the one which has more calories. But it isn't really that simple because I still have to take into account the source of calories.. whether it is more on fat or is it from protein or from carbs. The article suggests that I should be getting more calories from protein so it would add to my bones' mass. And I should also have to stay away from trans fats since these fats have tendencies to be carcinogenic because of free radicals.. or is it, these fats are carcinogenic.. anyway, it's something to that effect.. (i already forgot our lessons in FN 11 and HRIM 103)

I am dead serious about gaining weight so no matter how tiresome, tedious and cumbersome this may be as what I have learned now, I am very eager to go through all these trouble just to hit my target.

Suffering from emotional pain is worse than that of physical pain. I know we all know this fact. you all know this fact.

Nevertheless, I will still write about it in this entry. haha. This is my blog after all. (drama mode)

Physical pain is better than emotional pain. Why? Because there are medicines that you can buy over the counter to lessen your pain. If it is toothache or other body aches you can buy some pain relievers like ibuprofen or mefenamic acid. You can have aspirin for headaches or fever and so on. But there isn't an over-the-counter drug to cure emotional pain. Curing it would mean that you have to wallow in that pain, make it a part of your system and eventually you find yourself numb against the pain.. or is it the acceptance part that can cure you? hehe

i actually enjoyed reading my previous posts. You know, a little reminiscing and i got to laugh and feel sad while recalling the incidents i described in my entries. some reminded me of some things, of some feelings that i once felt, of the emotions i had while writing my blog. haha. a bit corny. i know. but it gives me a nice feeling. not only did i enjoy now reading my posts but also, i read previous entries of my friends in their blogs. some i read up to the first entry they posted. haha. while reading some stuff, i notice that i was so opinionated during my college years compared to now. i don't know. maybe it's because of my frustrations over so many things that i can no longer see myself clearly which makes it hard for me to position myself with regards to particular issue.

and i enjoyed reading some of my comments to my friends' posts too. haha. funny talaga. and i realized na dami ko palang comments na kunwari anonymous ako. haha. tsaka most of the times na kunwari di ko sinasabi name ko, e, ewan ko kung sang lupalop ko kinuha yung mga pinagsusulat ko. nakakatawa talaga.

which made me think na mas gusto ko atang magsulat as anonymous kasi i can express myself better. i always mind kasi wat other people will say tp my opinions.. yah, alam ko, i shouldnt kaya nga its my opinion pero in a way di ko talga maiwasang maisip kung ano ang iisipin nila if i say something negative or positive sa isang issue. ayokong may nakakaaway na tao kahit na bang alam ko na parang medyo mababaw ata yung reason na yun.. pero ganun talaga. isang reason din kung bakit i want to keep my anonymity is because i dont want exposing the real me to other people. i want to keep things to myself as much as possible. i dont want to say things for my emotions show whenever i say things. and i dont want them judging me from my emotions.. and always, when i show strong emotions over some thing, it reveals the real me. and when the my real self is revealed, it makes me think of myself being susceptible to other people's judgments. tama nga na. itigil na. naguguluhan na ako e. oras na para manood ng tv. :D

"People come into our lives

Leave footprints in our hearts

And we are never the same."

- I read this quote a long time ago- 

Talaga bang pinaglalaruan ako ng pagkakataon?

Sa dinami-dami naman ng pwede kong makita in a day ay talagang isang sasakyan pa na may plate ng PNPA ang nakita ko kaninang umaga. It's not a everyday kasi that you can see a vehicle that has PNPA's plate na talagang nakabalandra pa sa harapan ng sasakyan kaya kitang-kita ko kahit akoy sakay ng jeep na nasa unahan. At sa dinami-dami din ng araw sa isang taon, at may tatlumpu't-isang araw sa Hulyo ay kaninang umaga ko pa ito nakita kung kelan nagdesisyon akong ayoko na talaga!

Nakakainis talaga!

Showing na ang A very special love ni Sarah Geronimo and John LLoyd. Gusto ko pa naman sana itong panoorin last week pero nagbago na ang isip ko ngayon. Since he's no longer my special love and we're already through Im no longer in the mood to watch the movie. Maiisip ko lang siya and baka umiyak lang ako ng bonggang-bongga sa sinehan.

Pero di pa rin ako magsasalita ng tapos kasi malay mo.. shet, ano ba yan? am i actually hoping na we can work things out.. ano naman ngayon? untog ko nalang ulo ko sa pader... well, anyway, if things work out for the two of us and showing pa ang special love... baka panoorin ko pa rin.. and hopefully with him. shet!

Sabi nga daw, Love knows no reasons.. haha. pagsure oi?!